Peace and love to you all...
and since there is no peace to me, I haven't time to blog....but I did want to say hello to my readers (all 3 of you) and leave you with a little Friday clip that is just funny...
Natalie Portman Raps
Friday, April 28, 2006
Thursday, April 20, 2006
more fun to pass along....
my Aries Sun posted this on her blog, and it was just so entertaining, that I had to share it with you.....
Suri Cruise's headline in 2030
Suri Cruise's headline in 2030
Friday, April 14, 2006
What a day....
And on top of having the day off, the TV that I bought hubby for his bday went on sale at the wonderful Circuit City, and so I took my receipt and got 110% of the difference. WOW! How cool is that!
Good Friday mass was so peaceful. The Holy Thursday mass last night was nice as well. When we arrived at church there was a beautiful rainbow. Last night, we played the handbells and a soprano and I sang Pange Lingua. It was really a beautiful service. I went back at 10:45 for the prayer service, and that was nice too. At today's service, i cantored, which was a lot of fun. There was a cellist and I sang the Pslam with him and it was so beautiful. In-laws and hubby came to hear me sing, and even some of the RCIA instructors from last year. I'm looking forward to the Easter Vigil. It starts at dusk when the priest lights a fire and carves some symbols into a wax cross. Then we all process in together and proclaim that Jesus is the light of the world as all the candles and lights in the church are re-lit after everything was darkened last night. I love the ritual of the Catholic church. There are definitely pagan roots to a lot of the things they do. It's all very interesting.
The moon tonight coming home from Circuit City was blood red. It was really spooky. Kinda neat though....Good Friday, Jesus died, the blood of Christ and all....
yeah, okay. Goodnight.
Good Friday mass was so peaceful. The Holy Thursday mass last night was nice as well. When we arrived at church there was a beautiful rainbow. Last night, we played the handbells and a soprano and I sang Pange Lingua. It was really a beautiful service. I went back at 10:45 for the prayer service, and that was nice too. At today's service, i cantored, which was a lot of fun. There was a cellist and I sang the Pslam with him and it was so beautiful. In-laws and hubby came to hear me sing, and even some of the RCIA instructors from last year. I'm looking forward to the Easter Vigil. It starts at dusk when the priest lights a fire and carves some symbols into a wax cross. Then we all process in together and proclaim that Jesus is the light of the world as all the candles and lights in the church are re-lit after everything was darkened last night. I love the ritual of the Catholic church. There are definitely pagan roots to a lot of the things they do. It's all very interesting.
The moon tonight coming home from Circuit City was blood red. It was really spooky. Kinda neat though....Good Friday, Jesus died, the blood of Christ and all....
yeah, okay. Goodnight.
GOOD Friday....
Can I just say that I love that there are so many Catholics up here that they close the schools and the whole city on Good Friday? Ok, thanks. ....cuz that means I have the day off.
YAY.
YAY.
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
if this pisses you off, i apologize ahead of time....the attitude of this just pissed me off...
I saw this on another blog today, and though some of the points were valid, most of it, i felt was wrong. Why can't people who are unhappy with their jobs FIND ANOTHER ONE!!! There are plenty of jobs that are not in the service industry...but if you must work in the service industry, please understand that your job is SERVICE, and just like any job, if you do it well, you're paid for it, and if not, you suffer. If you give me good service, then you're going to be tipped well. Simple as that. I should tip you MORE because you felt like giving me free coffee!! PLEASE! Anyway, the origianal post is in blue with my responses in red, and like I said, this is not geared towards anyone in particular. I have done my fair share of resturant work, service and otherwise. It is a rant, so take it as such. It was my initial feelings at reading this. Perhaps it was just the attitide with which it was expressed, but it rubbed me the wrong way. Here ya go...
The next time you're out eating at a restaurant, look at your server. Do you think they are really happy to be doing that job? The answer is no, they are not, but it's what we do, and we do it for the money so please help them out. Its a tougher job than you think and you should pay them accordingly!
I realize that this is a tough job…but some people LOVE it. Some people were made to be career servers and actually love their job. I am a firm believer in at least kinda liking what you do. If you hate your job DO SOMETHING DIFFERENT. If I look at my server, and they look like they hate their job, then chances are, I’m going to get bad service, and the server is going to get a bad tip.
There are SO many people out there flooding the restaurants w/o any knowledge of how to tip. Here is a short guide for the general public to follow. Feel free to print out and store in your wallet and/or purse.
There are also SO many people out there working at the restaurant without any knowledge on how to serve. It is a server’s job to take care of the customer, NOT the other way around. The customer is the REASON that you have a job!
1. CHILDREN "THE LITTLE DEVILS":If you have children, DO NOT let them, open and dump anything on the table (ie; salt, sugar, etc). IF YOU DO, you must leave an extra $5 for the server to clean up YOUR CHILD'S mess & to restock the now unusable wasted items. We are neither their babysitter nor their parent. The least you can do is pay us for the extra work. Also make sure you control your kids and don't let them scream or run around the restaurant. It's very distracting not to mention dangerous if they get ran over by a server with hot food in their hands.
Unless I am a complete idiot, most of these things would not happen; However, on occasion, my children may be a little more rambunctious than they usually are. If the happen to open something and empty it, then I will probably clean most of it up, but god forbid you should touch it?!? Don’t they have bus boys anymore? You have to clean up the table. It’s in the job description. Sometimes it’s more difficult than other times, but there are restaurants where you can work that are NOT places for children. If you hate waiting on people with children, I suggest you not work at a “family friendly” place.
2. "THE CAMPERS":If you feel the necessity to stay for longer than 15 minutes after you pay, its an extra $3 every 30 minutes. We make our money from the tables. If you are in one and we can't seat it, we don't make money.
BY LAW, if you are not making a certain amount per hour with tips, your place of employment is obligated to pay you more per hour to make up for it. Your income is not solely based on my table. If I choose to stay for a while, chances are my service was good and you’re going to get a tip anyway…unless of course you get an attitude with me for staying late. Do your job well, and you get paid for it.
3. COMPLIMENTS:Telling a server they are the best server they've ever had is not a tip. If we are good, let us know by leaving us more money. We cant pay our bills on compliments. Its not that we don't appreciate the praise, its just that if you say that and then leave 10% it's an insult.
Again, chances are that if I think your service was good, you’ll be tipped….but don’t bet paying your bills on your tips. My mother always told me not to count my chickens before they hatch. If I can’t pay my bills, then I’m going to find a better paying job.
4. THE SALVATION PAMPHLETS:Prayer cards and any other religious pamphlet is NOT a tip. It is insulting that you assume we are w/o religion and must save us. Again, like ..3, we cant pay bills w/prayer cards. We'd go to church on Sundays if it wasn't mandatory to work on Sundays because EVERYONE who goes to church follows it by eating out.
If you don’t want the pamphlet, throw it away. Excuse us for trying to be nice. We are not trying to save you, nor do we assume that you are w/o religion. We simply are secure and happy in our spirituality and are making a suggestion to you. You don’t have to read it. You don’t have to look at it…and if you are not making enough money to pay your bills, then you probably suck as a server anyway. Find a better paying job.
5. TIPPING:It is not 1960. Cost of living has gone up dramatically since then. 18% is the MINIMUM amount of what you should be tipping your servers. Just look at the tax line and multiply by 2-3, this gives you your minimum tip amount. Remember, our companies pay us minimum wage (minumum wage for servers is $2.13) And we are taxed on 10 percent of your meal automatically anyway. So if your meal is $100 and you leave $10 and we tip out $4-5 to the busser, bartender, and whoever else then we pay tax on 10 dollars and we make $5. It seems small but it adds up. How many times do you eat out per week and do this?
Not every restaurant requires you to tip out. On top of that, most of your tips aren’t even reported so that YOU don’t have as much taxes coming out of your check. I can’t pick and choose how much I make. And you don’t tip out $4-5 of my $10 if I leave it. If I can afford a $100 meal, and my service was worth 20%, then you will get 20%. If it’s not, then you won’t….simple as that. You are called a SERVER.
6. THE COMPLAINERS:If you get a discount because of your food was prepared wrong or something, do not take it out of our tip. We didn't cook it. The cooks get paid hourly regardless if the food sucks. However, we only make what you give us.
You do not ONLY make what we tip you, though this is a valid argument. If there is something wrong with my food, and you do what you can to help, and there is no smart-assness coming from you, then you will still get your good tip.
7. THE FREE STUFF:If you happen to get anything for free and you did not have a problem with your dining experience, most of the time it is because the server thinks you will realize that they are giving it to you for free. There should be extra tip thanking the server for the free item. They could get in a lot of trouble giving away free stuff. You should give them hazard pay for it.
IF YOU ARE GOING TO GET IN TROUBLE FOR GIVING ME FREE FOOD THEN DON’T GIVE IT TO ME. Furthermore, if you are giving it to me for free, don’t expect me to pay for it. If I have to pay for it, then it wasn’t really free anyway, now was it?
8. THE LATE ONES:If you come into the restaurant 10 mins before closing or any time near closing hurry up and order your food and get out. Closed means closed, not social hour. It is so rude to sit there and take your sweet ass time. We can't leave until you leave because we have to do sidework and clean the table you are sitting at. We don't want to stand there waiting for you for an extra hour just because you don't want to go home. We recommend 24 hour establishments such as Dennys if you wish to sit into the wee hours of the night.
If your restaurant is closed, then I won’t come in. if it is open, then I will, and I’ll enjoy my food. If you need extra time to do your sidework, I'm sorry. Most sidework can be done whether there are people still there or not, and that the work that can't be done then can usually be done in a matter of minutes.
9. THE TABLE HOGGERS:If you only come in for coffee or a dessert, to do paper work, or to have a meeting, don't sit there taking up our booths for hours. We are not Starbucks or a hotel restraunt. If you want to sit for hours, go there or else you better leave a good tip for us and camping fee included.
If I choose to go out, maybe after a movie or something, and have dessert, then I will do that. If I want to have a business meeting, or work on some things, I will. Last I checked, there were no time limits for sitting at a restaurant, and as I have said, if I am served well, then the server will be tipped well.
10. THE GREET:When we come up to the table to greet you and we ask how you are doing please let us know. We honestly want to know how you are doing. If you are in a bad mood we want to know that from the beginning. A confused stare or complete silence does not suffice as a reply to "How are you doing?". Also most of us are REQUIRED to say certain things during the greeting, so please don't interrupt our greeting and say "I want coffee", "Can we get some bread?", or "What are the soups?"
Sometimes you go into these spiels before we have even had a chance to sit down and take our coats off. We look at you blankly because we have no idea what you’ve said. Sometimes we are completely engrossed in our menus and you come up and just start talking without any acknowledgement that you are even speaking to us. Give us some time to figure things out…and if I’m the secret shopper coming to see if you are saying your greeting correctly, chances are, I’m not going to interrupt you; so if I do, it’s okay for you to stop talking. I may already know the specials. I may already no what I want. Noone, that is neither of us wants to get off on a bad start.
11. THOSE DAMN CELL PHONES:Don't ever talk on your cell phone in a restaurant. This is probably the rudest thing to do. If you must be on your cell, at least keep your voice down in respect for other customers. If you are on your cell phone when we walk up to greet your table we will walk away and not return until you get off your phone. Just show some respect and give us your attention for a couple of minutes.
Good then. If I am on my cell phone, I expect you to leave me alone until I am done. Nothing is worse than having a server come up to me and interrupt a call. I may be on the phone with a babysitter, and my child is sick. Or maybe I’m the supervisor of a warehouse and someone was seriously injured. I come to the restaurant to eat, but if I get a call that I need to take, I will take it.
12. TAKE-AWAY OR TO-GOS:Always remember to tip the take-out order servers! They work just as hard as a server, and hardly ever get tips for it! WE DESERVE TO BE TIPPED TOO!
9 times out of 10, unless a regular server is also assigned to TO-GO orders, then the person doing these is getting a regular pay rate. If my food is ready when it’s supposed to be, then I may throw a couple bucks in the jar…but you didn’t serve me. You answered the phone, took my order, and put the food in the bag
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!SERVERS READING THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Please repost this so the word can get out, since so many people are uneducated about tips and our lives depend on this - at least for now......
I have been a server before. I understand part of the argument, but whoever wrote this doesn’t understand that the job is to serve people. When you do a good job, and enjoy what you do, then you make enough money. No one’s life should depend (solely) on tips – especially the ones that you haven’t even gotten yet. If it’s that bad, then FIND ANOTHER FREAKIN JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The next time you're out eating at a restaurant, look at your server. Do you think they are really happy to be doing that job? The answer is no, they are not, but it's what we do, and we do it for the money so please help them out. Its a tougher job than you think and you should pay them accordingly!
I realize that this is a tough job…but some people LOVE it. Some people were made to be career servers and actually love their job. I am a firm believer in at least kinda liking what you do. If you hate your job DO SOMETHING DIFFERENT. If I look at my server, and they look like they hate their job, then chances are, I’m going to get bad service, and the server is going to get a bad tip.
There are SO many people out there flooding the restaurants w/o any knowledge of how to tip. Here is a short guide for the general public to follow. Feel free to print out and store in your wallet and/or purse.
There are also SO many people out there working at the restaurant without any knowledge on how to serve. It is a server’s job to take care of the customer, NOT the other way around. The customer is the REASON that you have a job!
1. CHILDREN "THE LITTLE DEVILS":If you have children, DO NOT let them, open and dump anything on the table (ie; salt, sugar, etc). IF YOU DO, you must leave an extra $5 for the server to clean up YOUR CHILD'S mess & to restock the now unusable wasted items. We are neither their babysitter nor their parent. The least you can do is pay us for the extra work. Also make sure you control your kids and don't let them scream or run around the restaurant. It's very distracting not to mention dangerous if they get ran over by a server with hot food in their hands.
Unless I am a complete idiot, most of these things would not happen; However, on occasion, my children may be a little more rambunctious than they usually are. If the happen to open something and empty it, then I will probably clean most of it up, but god forbid you should touch it?!? Don’t they have bus boys anymore? You have to clean up the table. It’s in the job description. Sometimes it’s more difficult than other times, but there are restaurants where you can work that are NOT places for children. If you hate waiting on people with children, I suggest you not work at a “family friendly” place.
2. "THE CAMPERS":If you feel the necessity to stay for longer than 15 minutes after you pay, its an extra $3 every 30 minutes. We make our money from the tables. If you are in one and we can't seat it, we don't make money.
BY LAW, if you are not making a certain amount per hour with tips, your place of employment is obligated to pay you more per hour to make up for it. Your income is not solely based on my table. If I choose to stay for a while, chances are my service was good and you’re going to get a tip anyway…unless of course you get an attitude with me for staying late. Do your job well, and you get paid for it.
3. COMPLIMENTS:Telling a server they are the best server they've ever had is not a tip. If we are good, let us know by leaving us more money. We cant pay our bills on compliments. Its not that we don't appreciate the praise, its just that if you say that and then leave 10% it's an insult.
Again, chances are that if I think your service was good, you’ll be tipped….but don’t bet paying your bills on your tips. My mother always told me not to count my chickens before they hatch. If I can’t pay my bills, then I’m going to find a better paying job.
4. THE SALVATION PAMPHLETS:Prayer cards and any other religious pamphlet is NOT a tip. It is insulting that you assume we are w/o religion and must save us. Again, like ..3, we cant pay bills w/prayer cards. We'd go to church on Sundays if it wasn't mandatory to work on Sundays because EVERYONE who goes to church follows it by eating out.
If you don’t want the pamphlet, throw it away. Excuse us for trying to be nice. We are not trying to save you, nor do we assume that you are w/o religion. We simply are secure and happy in our spirituality and are making a suggestion to you. You don’t have to read it. You don’t have to look at it…and if you are not making enough money to pay your bills, then you probably suck as a server anyway. Find a better paying job.
5. TIPPING:It is not 1960. Cost of living has gone up dramatically since then. 18% is the MINIMUM amount of what you should be tipping your servers. Just look at the tax line and multiply by 2-3, this gives you your minimum tip amount. Remember, our companies pay us minimum wage (minumum wage for servers is $2.13) And we are taxed on 10 percent of your meal automatically anyway. So if your meal is $100 and you leave $10 and we tip out $4-5 to the busser, bartender, and whoever else then we pay tax on 10 dollars and we make $5. It seems small but it adds up. How many times do you eat out per week and do this?
Not every restaurant requires you to tip out. On top of that, most of your tips aren’t even reported so that YOU don’t have as much taxes coming out of your check. I can’t pick and choose how much I make. And you don’t tip out $4-5 of my $10 if I leave it. If I can afford a $100 meal, and my service was worth 20%, then you will get 20%. If it’s not, then you won’t….simple as that. You are called a SERVER.
6. THE COMPLAINERS:If you get a discount because of your food was prepared wrong or something, do not take it out of our tip. We didn't cook it. The cooks get paid hourly regardless if the food sucks. However, we only make what you give us.
You do not ONLY make what we tip you, though this is a valid argument. If there is something wrong with my food, and you do what you can to help, and there is no smart-assness coming from you, then you will still get your good tip.
7. THE FREE STUFF:If you happen to get anything for free and you did not have a problem with your dining experience, most of the time it is because the server thinks you will realize that they are giving it to you for free. There should be extra tip thanking the server for the free item. They could get in a lot of trouble giving away free stuff. You should give them hazard pay for it.
IF YOU ARE GOING TO GET IN TROUBLE FOR GIVING ME FREE FOOD THEN DON’T GIVE IT TO ME. Furthermore, if you are giving it to me for free, don’t expect me to pay for it. If I have to pay for it, then it wasn’t really free anyway, now was it?
8. THE LATE ONES:If you come into the restaurant 10 mins before closing or any time near closing hurry up and order your food and get out. Closed means closed, not social hour. It is so rude to sit there and take your sweet ass time. We can't leave until you leave because we have to do sidework and clean the table you are sitting at. We don't want to stand there waiting for you for an extra hour just because you don't want to go home. We recommend 24 hour establishments such as Dennys if you wish to sit into the wee hours of the night.
If your restaurant is closed, then I won’t come in. if it is open, then I will, and I’ll enjoy my food. If you need extra time to do your sidework, I'm sorry. Most sidework can be done whether there are people still there or not, and that the work that can't be done then can usually be done in a matter of minutes.
9. THE TABLE HOGGERS:If you only come in for coffee or a dessert, to do paper work, or to have a meeting, don't sit there taking up our booths for hours. We are not Starbucks or a hotel restraunt. If you want to sit for hours, go there or else you better leave a good tip for us and camping fee included.
If I choose to go out, maybe after a movie or something, and have dessert, then I will do that. If I want to have a business meeting, or work on some things, I will. Last I checked, there were no time limits for sitting at a restaurant, and as I have said, if I am served well, then the server will be tipped well.
10. THE GREET:When we come up to the table to greet you and we ask how you are doing please let us know. We honestly want to know how you are doing. If you are in a bad mood we want to know that from the beginning. A confused stare or complete silence does not suffice as a reply to "How are you doing?". Also most of us are REQUIRED to say certain things during the greeting, so please don't interrupt our greeting and say "I want coffee", "Can we get some bread?", or "What are the soups?"
Sometimes you go into these spiels before we have even had a chance to sit down and take our coats off. We look at you blankly because we have no idea what you’ve said. Sometimes we are completely engrossed in our menus and you come up and just start talking without any acknowledgement that you are even speaking to us. Give us some time to figure things out…and if I’m the secret shopper coming to see if you are saying your greeting correctly, chances are, I’m not going to interrupt you; so if I do, it’s okay for you to stop talking. I may already know the specials. I may already no what I want. Noone, that is neither of us wants to get off on a bad start.
11. THOSE DAMN CELL PHONES:Don't ever talk on your cell phone in a restaurant. This is probably the rudest thing to do. If you must be on your cell, at least keep your voice down in respect for other customers. If you are on your cell phone when we walk up to greet your table we will walk away and not return until you get off your phone. Just show some respect and give us your attention for a couple of minutes.
Good then. If I am on my cell phone, I expect you to leave me alone until I am done. Nothing is worse than having a server come up to me and interrupt a call. I may be on the phone with a babysitter, and my child is sick. Or maybe I’m the supervisor of a warehouse and someone was seriously injured. I come to the restaurant to eat, but if I get a call that I need to take, I will take it.
12. TAKE-AWAY OR TO-GOS:Always remember to tip the take-out order servers! They work just as hard as a server, and hardly ever get tips for it! WE DESERVE TO BE TIPPED TOO!
9 times out of 10, unless a regular server is also assigned to TO-GO orders, then the person doing these is getting a regular pay rate. If my food is ready when it’s supposed to be, then I may throw a couple bucks in the jar…but you didn’t serve me. You answered the phone, took my order, and put the food in the bag
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!SERVERS READING THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Please repost this so the word can get out, since so many people are uneducated about tips and our lives depend on this - at least for now......
I have been a server before. I understand part of the argument, but whoever wrote this doesn’t understand that the job is to serve people. When you do a good job, and enjoy what you do, then you make enough money. No one’s life should depend (solely) on tips – especially the ones that you haven’t even gotten yet. If it’s that bad, then FIND ANOTHER FREAKIN JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Happy Birthday to You....
Happy Birthday to my Aries Sun
the most beautiful person I've ever known
she helped make me who I am
and continues help form who I want to be
she keeps me grounded and sane
and has never judged me
she is truly the best friend I've ever had
Happy Birthday.
i love you.
the most beautiful person I've ever known
she helped make me who I am
and continues help form who I want to be
she keeps me grounded and sane
and has never judged me
she is truly the best friend I've ever had
Happy Birthday.
i love you.
Saturday, April 08, 2006
Oh oh oh NO!! Here they come....
I'm not one for posting lyrics. I think i've done it about twice, as opposed to a friend of mine who does it on an almost daily basis. Anyway, this band has been a part of my life for a LONG time, and now with the discovery of this ipod thingy, I'm able to find a lot of gems that I haven't heard in a long time. One of these gems is an old B-52's song, from the album "Cosmic Thing" - which is also the album that includes Love Shack and Roam. This song reminds me of my younger days, when I had no resposibilities and I actually was part of the Dead Beat Club.
Deadbeat Club
Huh, Get a job, what for, I'm trying to think
I was good, I could talk
A mile a minute,
On this caffeine buzz I was on
We were really hummin'
We would talk every day for hours
We belong to the deadbeat club
Anyway we can,
We're gonna find something
We'll dance in the garden
In torn sheets in the rain
We'll dance in the garden
In torn sheets in the rain
We're the deadbeat club
We're the deadbeat club
Going down to Allen's for
A twenty-five cent beer
And the jukebox playing real loud,"Ninety-six tears"
We're wild girls walkin' down the street
Wild girls and boys going out for a big time
Let's go crash that party down
In Normaltown tonight
Then we'll go skinny-dippin'
In the moonlight
We're wild girls walkin' down the street
Wild girls and boys going out for a big time
Anyway we can
We're gonna find something
We'll dance in the garden
In torn sheets in the rain
We'll dance in the garden
In torn sheets in the rain
We're the deadbeat club
We're the deadbeat club
Oh no! Here they come
The members of the deadbeat club
Deadbeat Club
Huh, Get a job, what for, I'm trying to think
I was good, I could talk
A mile a minute,
On this caffeine buzz I was on
We were really hummin'
We would talk every day for hours
We belong to the deadbeat club
Anyway we can,
We're gonna find something
We'll dance in the garden
In torn sheets in the rain
We'll dance in the garden
In torn sheets in the rain
We're the deadbeat club
We're the deadbeat club
Going down to Allen's for
A twenty-five cent beer
And the jukebox playing real loud,"Ninety-six tears"
We're wild girls walkin' down the street
Wild girls and boys going out for a big time
Let's go crash that party down
In Normaltown tonight
Then we'll go skinny-dippin'
In the moonlight
We're wild girls walkin' down the street
Wild girls and boys going out for a big time
Anyway we can
We're gonna find something
We'll dance in the garden
In torn sheets in the rain
We'll dance in the garden
In torn sheets in the rain
We're the deadbeat club
We're the deadbeat club
Oh no! Here they come
The members of the deadbeat club
Thursday, April 06, 2006
singing........
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU.....
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU.....
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR RHI...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOOOOO YOUUUUU!!!
~and many more.....~
Monday, April 03, 2006
Hang the DJ.....
Hubby and I watched "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind" the other night. It was an excellent movie, but it made me so very sad. I'm not a huge Jim Carrey fan, but he was so much less annoying in a serious role, as he was in the few other serious roles he's had. He was trying to erase her from his memory - mostly because she did it to him - but when it came down to it, he was the person he'd become because of her. He didn't *really* want to forget her. It made me think of all the memories I have of me and hubby and how i'd never want to forget any of the details....even the crappy shit. Then it made me thing of my dad and I had one of my semi-annual break-downs that I have had about my father since he died in 2000.
I usually only break down like that about 2 times a year. When I do, hubby holds me and calms me. He doesn't pretend to understand my feelings, because he has both of his parents, and he can't understand; but he knows me so well, and knows what I need and knows what to say, and that I'll get over it eventually, and he just waits it out with me. He knows that I miss my daddy. I think about him a lot. I have a picture of him in my living room. Ana really doesn't remember him. She remembers little things that I have told her, or scenes that she has seen on a home video, but not the actual person; the fact that he existed and that they were so close. I wish that he had gotten to meet hubby. I was on and off - mostly off - with someone else when he died, and that person was so cold and terrible to me when it actually happened. It took me a long time to get over that....the fact that when I needed this person the most, they made me feel to badly. He had lost his father too, so I was hoping for some common ground at a time when I really needed it. I reached out for comfort and got a very dry and unfeeling "i'm sorry to hear that..."
I was so lucky to have another person in my life who had lost his father and who would let me come over and cry for hours and feed me beer and cigarettes and goldfish. You know who you are, and that time meant more to me than you will ever know. My memories of you are all special and I would never want to erase them. (SHUT THE FUCK UP!) Who am I kidding, you're not reading this.
Anyway, i love my satellite radio and my 1st Wave station. They had a SMITH'S REUNION weekend, and so I got my fill of Morrissey and the Smiths all weekend. It was lovely. I was in heaven......
I'm soooo sorry.....
I usually only break down like that about 2 times a year. When I do, hubby holds me and calms me. He doesn't pretend to understand my feelings, because he has both of his parents, and he can't understand; but he knows me so well, and knows what I need and knows what to say, and that I'll get over it eventually, and he just waits it out with me. He knows that I miss my daddy. I think about him a lot. I have a picture of him in my living room. Ana really doesn't remember him. She remembers little things that I have told her, or scenes that she has seen on a home video, but not the actual person; the fact that he existed and that they were so close. I wish that he had gotten to meet hubby. I was on and off - mostly off - with someone else when he died, and that person was so cold and terrible to me when it actually happened. It took me a long time to get over that....the fact that when I needed this person the most, they made me feel to badly. He had lost his father too, so I was hoping for some common ground at a time when I really needed it. I reached out for comfort and got a very dry and unfeeling "i'm sorry to hear that..."
I was so lucky to have another person in my life who had lost his father and who would let me come over and cry for hours and feed me beer and cigarettes and goldfish. You know who you are, and that time meant more to me than you will ever know. My memories of you are all special and I would never want to erase them. (SHUT THE FUCK UP!) Who am I kidding, you're not reading this.
Anyway, i love my satellite radio and my 1st Wave station. They had a SMITH'S REUNION weekend, and so I got my fill of Morrissey and the Smiths all weekend. It was lovely. I was in heaven......
I'm soooo sorry.....
Sunday, April 02, 2006
I finally have a picture of the new tattoo....
THIS is the new tatt that I wrote about so long ago. I finally got a picture of it that looks half way decent, so I thought I would put a picture up here to share with all of you. It was finished in Jan, and I am extremely happy with it. It turned out better than I ever thought it would. I wish the picture showed the color as well as it actually looks. I absolutely love it...and I can't wait for the next one. Funny how the bug gets you. See the people in the trunk of the tree kinda hugging?? Yeah, now that is amazing art work. My tattoo artist kicks ass, dontcha think?
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