i wish i could play the bass guitar....

i love my hubby.

i love my new kitchen table and matching china closet. my mother never even had a china closet.

i love that when I said "i'm going to put this in this drawer of the new china closet, but I want to use the other drawers for placemats and napkins, ok?" that my husband's answer was "whatever you want to do, it's your china closet."

i love that he went out and bought it for me even tho when we saw it in the store he said that he didn't like vintage and that it looked "too retro."

i love that he is helping me clean so that my house will be presentable for my mother and Colin coming in.

i love that my friend jon is a brilliant writer and that he sent me a copy of his latest work and signed it for me and all, and that I had no idea that it was coming and that it's so close to my birthday that i consider it a birthday present and it makes me happy.

i love that my best friend is getting better.

i love that she makes me think about being better.

i love that i have her in my life and still feel close even when we're so far away.

i love that she didn't disappear when i had my second wedding. i'm glad she was there.

i love that i did a blog today because my head aches from stress and lack of sleep and need to write.

i love that I actually picked up my guitar yesterday and remembered how to play some stuff....pixies rock.

i love kim deal.

Jocilyn.....

Why do things happen. People ask these questions all the time, knowing that there is rarely an answer.

Joci was such a beautiful and genuine person. She moved here from Oregon to go to school. She was my favorite of my sister's roommies. She was the only one that ever hung out with me, or came over later to see me.

Ana loved her so much. I don't think i'm going to tell her what happened.

I love you, Joci and missed you before I even knew you were gone.

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